....still obsessing

Don't worry....my posts will not be so frequent. I am just thinking about this so much because it is the beginning and I think "too much" so obviously I want to write it down.

As you may have noticed, I have a lot of ads up on the blog....this is a force of habit. I am a recovering Internet Marketer and Promoter. ( I Capitalize because they are titles ) Whenever I start something that I purely enjoy doing, I muck it up by asking the question "How can I make money off of it?"

That is when Google Ads and affiliate links find their way into my creative and peaceful projects. I am someone who always has multiple and creative projects that I never finish. Very easily distracted.....like now, I am video skyping with my too-good-to-be-true boyfriend of more years than you would expect. I lost my train on thought.

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Oh yeah, so since I have bills piling up and have this annoying social anxiety/depression/laziness to get my butt off the couch I find it hard to fight off the urge to try to make some kind of income online. I was an internet marketer when I was younger because my parents didn't want me to work  but I found a way and was getting pretty good at it. I had a mentor with whom I still talk to and he says that I should come back to it but its an awful load to take on....first the investment money, then the energy and time required to set it up, its exhausting.

As you can see, I tend to get very easily obsessed with things but I have some resentment about internet marketing because it took so much from me and right when I was getting so good, I had to quit. I regret that very much. I might have a stable passive income still coming in. I get about $20 every 3 months from a company still.

I need to learn how to stick to things....I need to be disciplined but I just don't know how.